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Whoopie Doo

2011-09-22T16:05:00.000+08:00

HII !

So , I had lab just now and i was late due to my laziness .
ugh , i felt super lazy this morning , i don't even know why .

Anyway , Kak Rinee called and asked for a favor (:
Here I am , at the shop .
Just had lunch next door , at Mukha .
Ate maa steak sandwich !

hehe , took a bite before taking the picture ! Ooops !
but it's goodd !
I'm a Happy Girl (:

Now , I'm just going to wait for people to come (:
Meanwhile , i'm going to do my Theatre Essay ):

xx

Tralala

2011-09-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

HEYYY !

So , what's up people ?

Look at my GIF . nothing much but pretty cool , huh ?

What have i been up to ?

Well , nothing productive , really ...

I have a 1000 words essay due by the end of this month . mehh .

I did pretty alright for my psych quiz considering i didn't study .

And Mr. Izwan finally decided that I could be in the 1130 am class for Agama .

That means i get to be home by 140 ! *jumps for joyy*

Tomorrow , i've got lab . ugh , george is always moody on thursday . BOO !

Anyway , these past few days , i've been feeling like a chef ;p

I was broke on Monday , and i really felt like eating Pasta . So , i go home and was like "Hey , why not make my own pasta !"

And so , I did , all by myself :)

It's nothing much , but at least i tried .

It wasn't perfect but it was delicious !

I'm not trying to brag , but for me , it tasted good ;)

besides that , i've been craving for potato wedges !

So , again , i did them myself .

It didn't turn out as crispy as i wanted it to be . It was soft .

I don't know why and how to make it crispy :\

I wanted it to be like the ones they serve at the shop ,

So crispy with yummy dipping sauce by the side ;D

Aaaahh !

Oh ya !

Meet my chem classmates ;)

Fun people to be around ;)

till then

That Woman

2011-09-15T23:24:00.002+08:00

Reason

2011-09-13T19:38:00.000+08:00

heyy !

So , today , i intended to study in the morning but failed to do so :\
Woke up at about 10 or so , sent the cars to the car wash then went on a lunch date with Puteri .
We figured we haven't been out for awhile now and we had a lot of catching up to do , so we headed to Bangsar for lunch (:

I picked her up and we headed to Ben's General Food Store in Bangsar Village (:
I like the place , it was nice (:
Puteri and I ordered the Il Carnivore pizza which was filled with meat !
the name says it all .
There was pepperoni , breakfast strips , lamb chunks , sausages etc. Meat Galore !
It was delicious ;)

We wanted to try the desserts but failed because we were too full but we bought some to take away (:
Puteri bought the lemon slice from Ben's and some other cakes from Plan B.
I bought a Flourless Chocolate Fudge from Plan B .
It was good !

Puteri and I are planning to go again next week to try the desserts ! :D

Anyway , Areesa is here again , i was playing with her and i just put her to sleep ;)
She is too cute !

Till then,
xx

Secrets

2011-09-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

So , today , i decided to take my laptop along to college . I thought of doing some work on it but totally failed . I accompanied Laveniya instead . HAHA .

Above is a picture of Sabrina , Jia and I right before Chem started (:

Meet Am (:

AND AND AND , my package arrived today ,
Ordered a laptop sleeve from The Spin
It was really nice of them to include a free gift which was a bracelet and also a handwritten 'thank you' letter (:
I am a happy girl .

Till then ,
xx

Reassurance.

2011-09-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

"Things are different this year. Everything that mattered doesn't anymore"

Feelings .
they change .
and because of that , people change too .

If you ask me what I need right now , it is - Reassurance .

I don't need you to tell me how beautiful i am everyday .
I don't need your goodmorning/goodnight texts .
I don't expect you to shower me with luxury .
I don't need long endless late night calls .

All , i'm asking for is a little of your time to reassure me that you're always there for me .
to assure me that i'm your only girl .
to assure me that you've never forgotten me .
to assure me that this will last .

That's all i'm asking for . a little of your time .

If that's too much to ask of you , then i promise you ,
i'll leave and not look back .

Fire

2011-09-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

So , a week of college has passed . So far .. so good (:
What have i been doing ?

Well , i made a new facebook account , so , now i'm hooked on Sims Social .
Thanks to Alan , my cousin and Jia . They've been talking about it . so yeahh .

This is my house (:

This is me over at Jia's house ;)

and this is me at Am's house :D

Besides that ,

Jia and Brenda persuaded me to watch Secret Garden , a Korean Drama .

I wasn't that up for it till about the 2nd episode onwards , i was giggling and laughing alone watching it in the middle of the night .

It's pretty good . Cliche , but good (:

Anyway , today , Nik and I checked out the Movie theatre in Subang Parade .

I have to say , it is nice . the cinema isn't that big but it's a nice place to go , where you don't have to queue to get the tickets . The seats were comfortable too !

That's it for now !

City Love

2011-09-06T16:53:00.000+08:00

Heyy ,

So , last Sunday , Jia , Qihong and I went to Pavilion , KL .
We went to Ben's to have lunch , then we did a little shopping .
We also dropped by Sephora right opposite it (:
Ben's food was pretty good , will consider going there again (:
Overall , I had a nice day out with them homies ;)

Here are some pictures !

Jia's choice of food :

Tomato Soup , which was delicious & Potato Wedges

Qihong's choice :

Pasta and the pineapple mint friz or something.

The drink was awesome !

and mine !

Beef Lasagna :)

Besides that , here are some delayed pictures from Puteri's Birthday Dinner (:
We went to Cafe Barbera which is in Bangsar .
And now , there will be Cafe Barbera in Pyramid ! *dances
After Cafe Barbera , we drove to Wondermilk to get some cupcakes ;)
So here they are :

Till then ,
xx

LUANLEGACY

2011-09-06T00:23:00.001+08:00

Besides Kingsley and Jenna Marbles , Luan Legacy has awesome videos as well .

Imma post some videos that are pretty relevant ;)

Enjoyy
xx

KINGSLEY

2011-09-05T23:54:00.001+08:00

So , i'm sure all of you have heard about :
ItsKingsleyBitch !

right ?

HAHA , so , i was just going through some of his videos and i found one that is probably relevant to me ;p

THIS !!

This is another funny video . OMG . HAHAHAHA

Till then,
xx

No Boundaries

2011-09-03T01:37:00.000+08:00

Well , despite the bitterness we've been going through , I still love my boyfriend unconditionally .

So , as off today , it marks our 27th Monthiversary !

27 months and still counting (:

Selamat Hari Raya

2011-09-03T01:02:00.000+08:00

Here are some pictures from the first day of Raya (:

Despite the rough times that we've gone through , i still love each and everyone of them .

Family is the most precious thing that you can ever have and nothing more valuable than the love we share can replace it .

Thoughts

2011-09-02T00:50:00.002+08:00

Here .

this place right here , is where i come to pour out my thoughts .

Today , tonight , i want to clear my head .

I love my boyfriend of over 2 years but our relationship is on a suicide mission .

Arguments and fights are a necessity in a relationship .

However, a little too much of it results in a really unhealthy relationship .

We've had our ups and downs .

If we could overcome a big obstacle , why can't we overcome this ?

We fight over the silliest , simplest , smallest things .

And we've been fighting almost every night .

I would be lying if I said I don't miss the old times .

I do , I really do .

I have to admit , i get jealous easily .

It's my fault that i can't control myself .

But , there is always a part of you that is insecure when he starts talking to another girl , right ?

I overthink .

Why is he talking to her ?

What are they talking about ?

Is he starting to get bored with me ?

Is he going to fall for her ?

Am i not good enough ?

These thoughts , these thoughts ruin me .

I get mad , i blow , i accuse him of doing things he didn't do .

That thought leads to a bigger argument .

It is always about the same thing .

He'll go around saying :

"Am i not allowed to have friends that are girls?"

"Why do you have problems with all my friends?"

Is there something wrong with me ?

I mean , i would say that my intentions are perfectly acceptable .

Call me selfish , but i wouldn't want to share my boyfriend with someone else .

I want to be his only girl , the only girl he cares about .

When I start being close to my guy friends ,

he would throw a fit .

he says that i have an attitude problem .

but it's unfair isn't it ?

he can have so many friends who are girls , and i can't even keep one friend who is a guy .

a guy that i have been friends with probably longer than him ?

i lost my friends because of him and he says that my attitude sucks thats why i don't have friends .

he keeps on saying that and i start believing him .

now , let me ask you , is this healthy ?

I know , i'm not the perfect girlfriend ,

i have probably mistreated him in some ways .

i admit , i lied , i screamed , i cursed .

But besides all that , i gave everything .

i loved him with all my heart .

cliche but true .

And he had the guts to say i was useless ?

2 years of being in a relationship with him and i am considered useless ?

USELESS ?

is that what he thinks of me ?

I just can't describe how i feel .

i mean , what does it even mean ?

how can i be useless to somebody ?

somebody that means something to me .

It hurts .

It hurts a lot when someone points out all your flaws .

when someone says such horrible things to you .

when someone perceive you to be that way .

It hurts to know that someone doesn't love you as much as they did .

I'm stuck .

i just …

i'm lost .

i'm scared .

i'm tired .

i'm sick .

Perfection

2011-08-28T15:52:00.001+08:00

What is perfect ?

We can't truly define the word perfect because there are about 6 billion people in this world and everybody has a different perception of the word - 'perfect' .

Everybody longs for a perfect relationship , just like in the movies .
Let me tell you something - WAKE UP .
Reality is NOTHING compared to what we dream of , what we imagine .
Things are much different and harder to manage .
When you fuck things over , no fairy god mother is going to come and save you .
you've got to buck the fuck up yourself and stand back on your own two feet .
you've got to BE STRONG . that's the word .

I can honestly say , that I have given up on my relationship .
I am just afraid to let go and by that , i am torturing myself .
When i say give up , that doesn't mean i have completely stop loving him .
I just stop fixing it , giving two fucks about it .
All the lies that have been going around ,
better yet the meaningless "I love you" that has been thrown around .
It got me thinking . Is this really worth all my time , my life , my sacrifices ?

It is true , there is only two parts to solve my problems :
1. to walk away .
2. to stay and endure the pain .

To be honest , i can't stand the thought of walking away .
To just stand there and watch him fall for another girl .
The pain is just .. unexplainable in words .
Because , i know , when he falls , he falls hard .

So , i turn to enduring the pain .
but i am not that type of girl .
the one to just keep quiet when something goes wrong .
the one to just shut up when she doesn't like something .
but i tried .
i tried sucking it all in .
everything .
but i can't . it is just too much for me .
so , i explode .
nothing is ever good when it explodes .

Therefore the relationship goes haywire .
Nothing ever gets fixed .

I am tired of all these immature bullshit .
for once , i want to know how it feels like to be treated like i actually mean something .
to be cared for , to be loved .
I want to be respected in a relationship .
I am not some high school piece of shit that you can just push around .
I have been longing for a wiser relationship .
A relationship with someone who can guide me through life .
Not a boy who still seeks freedom leaving me feeling insecure .
It is a cruel world out there and i seek for security .

I just don't know what to do anymore .
i'm tired of going on about the same thing over and over again .
but that's life .
when is it ever fair ?

Till then ,
xx

Rain Over Me.

2011-08-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

So , I did not manage to go head over to campus to change my timetable , unfortunately .
But i managed to persuade my mum to get me another Baju Raya ;)
Went for Buka with the boyfriend then he came over to chill for a bit .

Look at my cat being all manja :')

ANYWAY , in College today , Ms. Kalai refused to change me to an earlier session for IS but i managed to persuade Mr. Izwan to let me attend the earlier session .

Guess it'll be 8-4 then . Feels like High School all over again .

My Chem lecturer is indescribable beyond words ...

He is hilarious but in a rather awkward manner ...

I don't know , you could barely explain him .

Justin laughed when he saw him and sent me text when he saw Mr. George walking to class .

"Fucking slo mo man LOL"

"Freaking baywatch"

HAHAHAHAHHA .

I should prolly take a picture of him and you can imagine what i have to deal with everday . HAHA

For some reason he kept on going

"If you laugh so much , you get fat you know"

Like dudeee . HAHA . SERIOUSLY ? -.-

Well ,

i'm going to watch a movie before i head to bed .

Puteri's birthday is in an hour !

Pretty excited for tomorrow's plans ;)

Will post pictures .

All at Once .

2011-08-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

Semester 3 of the American Degree Transfer Program , we finally meet (:

I've been enjoying my holiday for the past 3 weeks . I didn't do much but yeah , it was nice get my much needed sleep back (or maybe a little too much) .
Anyway , got my results . I was not very pleased but it was okay , i guess ?
My CGPA dropped but apparently a 3.45 isn't that bad .
All i have to do now , is make an effort to maintain it or bring it up a notch this semester (:

So , for the whole of 2 weeks , the Taylors Student Portal was being a pain the ass .
Results weren't posted , my timetable wasn't updated and everything was practically a mess .
I was furious because i wanted to plan out my classes nicely and match it to Jia's timetable .
However i managed to settle it today and they finally updated my timetable on my portal
It is almost perfect ;)

I want to change my Islamic Studies to an earlier time slot so I could finish at 1:40 pm every Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays (:

Also , if i do that , i'll be in the same class as Amalina (:

The sad thing is , i won't have the same classes as Jia ): Except for Chemistry .

What will i ever do without her ):

Pretty sad about it .

I was hoping to be in the same class as her in theatre as well . It'll be so much fun !

but unfortunately we can't change anything now ):

So , i'm heading over to College tomorrow in hopes that I can make the changes that i want (:

Till then,

Little Kids

2011-08-23T00:38:00.000+08:00

So , i'm going to post up a few pictures that i took during Ana's Sports Day (:

I thought the boy in red was really cute ! ;)

Ana won first place . I was so proud of her ;)

Ana and my sister (:

Ana and her sister , Ina

Yes , ignore my really ugly face , it was too early for me to be awake .

On the same day , i had to babysit my brother's daughter too . She is the cutest thing ever !

This is my nephew , Aiman .

My sister's son (:

I love little kids ! they are like the cutest things ever . Though , i do get pissed off if they get on my nerves . My little nieces and nephews can be really annoying at times . but despite everything , i love each and everyone of them to little bits and pieces (:

Till then,

xx

Amalia Nadhirah

2011-08-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

A Birthday Video ShoutOut to Nadhirah !

I hope you like it .

Made with loads of love (:

300th

2011-08-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

HI !

So , this is my 300th post (:

Today , i woke up pretty early to send my car to the car wash then drove to Subang Parade to run some errands with mother .
I am looking for the FM transmitter for my iPod .
Went to the mac shop and they were selling it for like 200 bucks . HEH .
I'm still looking around for like simpler looking ones . Something like Justin's one but he got his from his dad . BLEGH .
The other day , i bought one for 35 bucks but it didn't work . got me so pissed .
I'm looking for one that looks like this :

Something simple - like those .

ANYHOO , tomorrow is little Ana's sports day , going to head over to her kindergarten which was previously mine to take pictures and support her :D

Till then ,
xx

Next to you.

2011-08-15T01:21:00.000+08:00

Eyyy !

What's up people ?

Well , tonight , i finished my last and final episode of the OC .
It is probably my utmost favorite tv series . I could watch it over and over and over again .
And i would say , Season 3 is probably my personal favorite season of the OC .

Here is a video I found on youtube : Season 3 Finale [The OC]
I loved the pool scene where they were reminiscing :')
Check it out :)

OHH , and i finally deleted my facebook account
I thought it would be fine , i mean it is but it's just harder cause i need to do some college stuff on it .
I'll probably create another account soon (:

Till then ,
xx

Good Life

2011-08-14T13:50:00.000+08:00

So , these past few weeks have been rather hard on me .
Sucks when you finally realize that your love life is hanging by a thread .
I'm still lost , can't figure out what is happening .
which is right ? which is wrong ?
Empty - one word to describe me , for now at least .
I'm hoping for things to get better , but i'm not going to push it if it really doesn't work out .
I shall channel my depression , frustration and anger towards positive things .
Don't really feel like talking about it here but i just had to let a part of it out .

Anyway , there are too many strangers on my facebook now . thinking of cleaning it .
Perhaps , make a new facebook account and add only people i know .
But first , i've got to save all my pictures and clear out some things .
Will start doing it soon , before the new semester starts .

I've got to go help my mother now .

Till then ,
xx

Nice Girls

2011-08-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

Hey ,

Was suppose to sleepover Am's house last night but plans failed cause of dad -.-
But she slept my house the night before and we had a HP marathon
We even made a video which i will post up (:
a 6 minutes video talking about nothing . HAHA .

Anyway , had a pretty nice night out with the boyfriend and Iqhwan (:
We went to AC and it has been like AGES since i last went to AC .

Till then,
xx

Love.

2011-08-12T03:35:00.001+08:00

Love ?

It gets complicated after awhile .

Everything was perfect , at first . When we were both so in love . It's like we couldn't get enough of each other . Made time during the weekends . Going to the same mall , doing the same thing every other weekend . It was exciting . Butterflies in the tummy . Giggling , laughing , talking and sharing everything . All the late night phone calls that lasts for hours . We would have little arguments then you would cheer me up . Those phone calls completed my day . Each and every day .

Now ?

insecurities , trust issues , being too emotional .

words that create problems .
Problems we would go through together . We would always make it in the end of the day . I would say it made us pretty strong . However , these problems leave a hole in the relationship . A hole , almost impossible to patch up .

Hatred , Anger , Sadness , Frustration , Loneliness .
Words that build and multiply inside us . It is bound to escape , one way or another and sometimes , we end up with tears . we end up being heartbroken . But the love we have for each other keeps us going .

My relationship is like a wall that is about to crumble . A tiny mishap could destroy it .

We don't go out that often - dinner , lunch , watch a football match .
but mostly , we stay at home , watch tv , a movie perhaps .
Hours of late night phone calls ? I barely even dial his number . We talk on the phone probably 3 times a month . and those phone calls don't even last for 30 minutes .
We don't have anything to talk about . everything seems like a sensitive issue . and i wouldn't want to risk my relationship for that .

It got me thinking .
Are we bored of each other ?
Does it show how we're drifting apart ?
Is it the end ?
Have we reached our limit ?

But I love him . I really do .
I love him so much it hurts .

I just miss the old us .
How it used to be .
I want to fall in love with you all over again .
I'm sick of all the tears and the heartbreaks .
I want laughter , I want smiles .
I want to fix this and make it work .

x

Where do I begin ?

2011-08-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

So , what have i been up to ? nothing , really .
it has been kinda boring .
been helping my mother a lot though in the kitchen baking cookies and learning how to cook .
i have been such a good girl . can't you see the halo on my head ? HAHA

Went out for buka puasa the other night with the usual 4 (:
Puteri and Am gave me a present ;) and i fell in love with the ear rings :D
and i like the top too (:

besides that , today , dropped by pyramid for a bit to grab some stuff .
managed to get 2 high wasted jeans , and 4 tops from topshop (:
i am a happy girl .

anyway , i'm looking forward to Wednesday . Sleepoverr with my girls *jumps for joy

till then,
xx

Someone like you

2011-08-06T01:04:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, before i sleep , i can't help it but just cry .
i fall , i make mistakes , i do things i'm not proud of ;
but i'm only human . i am not perfect .

i forget , i curse , i make a total fool out of myself .
i wish i could stop , make it end ,
but then again , i'm only human .

i dare say , i'm not a very good friend .
i've been told how i have an attitude problem .
i wish i could change .

i hate how i look .
i wish i was prettier , skinnier .
like all the other girls .

i wish he still loves me like he used to .
i don't know what happened , what went wrong .
everything is a mess .
must be my fault .

but i'm only human .

i wish i was heartless , numb .
i can't take this pain .
i can't do this anymore .

i wish i was stronger .

Get Low

2011-08-05T00:19:00.000+08:00

So , what's up people ?
SHORT POST TODAY .

1. Watched the OC .
2. Bangsar with ma girls ; Amalina & Puteri
3. Threading - finally did it ! :D
4. MORE OC !!

So , the usual four was suppose to hang out tonight over at my place but plan failed .
Oh wells , we're meeting up tomorrow though ;)

Here are some pictures , nothing much .
Just , Am , Puteri & I (:

&& before i go , i'd like to say

I MISS MY JIA JIA BEANS ):

Paperweight

2011-08-03T16:06:00.000+08:00

HEY !

So , i haven't been updating my blog , haha , been so busy and lazy .
Well , now i'm a free bitch for 3 weeks till the third semester starts (:

I wanted to post a vlog but like , i didn't know what to talk about , camera shy la ;)
but i'll post a vlog soon (:

First, i went for an eye check up , and my power increased from 250 to 300 :\ so i got new glasses . HEHE . it's the one in the picture above ;p

BESIDES THAT , i've been doing nothing , but all i've been doing is :

sleep
sleep
sleep
watch tv
sleep
eat
sleep

YEAH , livin' the hippo life to the fullest :D

It's also fasting month , so , i can't go out in the afternoon , i mean i can , but i'll literally suffer and die of hunger and thirst .
SO , i stay at home and watch the OC , yes , again . i mean , i can never get enough of SETH and SUMMER !

These are some pictures i edited and posted on tumblr :')
Don't you just love Seth & Summer !

So yeah , i'm going to go watch the OC now ,
catch up with you soon ! ;)

x

URBANSCAPES 2011

2011-07-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

Henry Golding and I ♥

What is up , people ?
So , today , Jia and I attended the Urbanscapes 2011 event at the Astaka Field in PJ .
The weather was perfect then it drizzled for a bit then it got hot .
Jia and I had to walk pretty far to get to the field . BUT it is okay , good exercise ;)
So , i'd like to summarize it as a day well spent (:
Here are some pictures (:
ENJOY .

Liyana Fizi

After Urbanscapes , came home , took a quick shower and met up with Puteri , Rais & Amalina (:

Then headed to Gold Chilli to meet up with Nik and his friends .

All of a sudden he is a Liverpool fan . Like right ...

He ditched me to go watch football , yeah . my life .

Boys will be boys , they never change . gets on my nerves .

I can't seem to rotate the picture but yeah , here is a picture of Puteri & I at Upstairs Cafe ;)

and Nik and I ;)

I look like crap but to hell with it (:

AND , been watching DIY videos on youtube , and this is what i learned :

Till then ,

Always just that close .

2011-07-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hey Ho Marilyn Monroe ;)

So , what's up , people ?
Wondered if i survived this week ?
HOFUCKYEAH I DID :D

Mary decided to cancel debate , i completed her outline .
and i got to see Walcott , like so close :D
HEHEHE .

Drove to Bukit Jalil right after class (:
Got pretty front row seats , sat with Nik , Sabrina and Isk (:
Had so much fun seeing WALCOTT . ♥

DO YOU SEE #14 !

*screams*

AND AGAAINNNN !

god , i miss you already !

HOW COULD YOU RESIST THIS ?

So , that's about it (:

Here are some retarded pictures of my boyfriend and I .

TOMORROW URBANSCAPES WITH SEXY JIA ! ♥

Choo Choo !

2011-07-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

HELLO BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE OF THE WORLD !

So , i thought this week would be fun and i actually looked forward to it . I mean come one :

1. Arsenal ! THEO WALCOTT *faints

2. URBANSCAPES

what is there to not look forward to ?

TILL i went to class . there is so much to do . especially for english . it is so frustrating and stressful . LIKE OHMYGOD

Debate on Thursday ?

Argumentative Essay Outline ?

Topic is on like Human Rights ? United Nation ? Convention on Refugees ?

Complete it within a day ?

The essay outline, and the script is all due like tomorrow . STRESSFULL

then , we have to get our poster done for our final IPC presentation .

ALSO IPC TEST NEXT MONDAY .

ohmyfucking god .

ALL I CAN SAY NOW IS .... gg.com.my . HAHAHA

Jia and Jillian have been saying it a lot . and i thought it was appropriate to add it in my sentence ;)

SO YEAH FUCK MY LIFE .

BUT , besides that !

Arsenal Players have arrived since yesterday and Adam went for the Training Pass which i didn't get to go to and he took a picture of my beloved, Theo Walcott ! AAAHHHH !

READ THE COMMENT HE SAID :

Adam N Mahadi: Pfft , haha he's short . Sesuai dgn you :-p

DID YOU SEE THAT !

"SESUAI DENGAN YOU"

he is soo sesuai with me . i feel soo aww ;)
YES , I LOVE YOU WALCOTT .

I'm going to hell tomorrow morning but I'LL BE THERE TO SEE YOU BABY .
GOSH I LOVE YOU !

till then ,

xx

Look At Me .

2011-07-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

Whats up homieeeessss ? ;)

guess who just got their Urbanscapes 2011 tickets ?

Yes , Jia & I got our tickets :D

We soo excited ;p

Oh , and by the way , that s Qi Hong , if you were wondering (:

URBANSCAPEs 2011 , We're Coming ;)

&& these are just a few pictures of Jia and I goofing around (:

I love Jia !

She never fails to make me laugh,

and she is always there when i need her (:

Anyway , here i am , in my room , trying to do my work , trying to get through my boyfriend . God , it is so frustrating . I can't seem to get anything done . which sucks . and i haven't heard from Nik since like 930 am . like seriously , this is ridiculous . BBM couldn't be delivered , Text msgs couldn't go through , i can't reach him . His phone is like switched off . I don't mean to sound clingy . but yeah . doesn't feel right , hmm . i hope i could get through him by like 12 . i feel like crying . gosh .

oh wells , got to wake up early . heading to college as early as 8 am . i've got a meeting and i've got to print up some stuff . anyway , i've got to head back to search for more information for the upcoming debate . HEH ):

xx

Dangerous & Sweet

2011-07-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hello Errbody !

What's everyone up to today ?
So , like every other Sunday , i started off my Sunday pretty slow .
Woke up and mum asked me to tag a long with her to visit my Uncle in the hospital at Putrajaya .
So , i went and after that , we had lunch at one of the Arab Restaurant in Cyberjaya . It was a big portion but it was filling . One meal for one whole day :D

Then , begged mum to bring me to empire so i could get some clothes . she got pissed off but took me there anyway . She told me not to get anything so i got pretty pissed off because she brought me to empire and i wasn't allowed to by anything . pretty pointless don't you think ?
So then i figured , ah screw it , since she's brought me here let's just get what i need . and i was in desperate need of like a pair of jeans . She ended up buying me 2 pairs of jeans and decided to get me like 4 pairs of footwear , 2 sandals and 2 shoes . which was more that i bargained for . not that i'm complaining but yeahh (:
Let's just say i am a happy girl !

Purchases from Charles & Keith (:

This is from Guess (:

Dorothy Perkins Jeans !

So that was about it .

Anyway , Nik is in Unisel now (: haven't got the chance to talk to him properly since he has been like busy the whole day . i kinda miss him ): oh wells .

We purchased tickets to watch his Favourite football team play this coming Wednesday evening :D

We're going to go watch Arsenal play against Malaysia !

I am pretty excited and i know he is too ! :D

That's about it .

i've got an assignment due tomorrow and i still haven't started on it yet . blegh .

gonna go clean up my room and talk to the boyfriend .

Wedding Dress

2011-07-10T00:11:00.001+08:00

Today , we celebrated one of my relative's 5th birthday and she dressed up as Aurora from The Sleeping Beauty , one of Disney's princesses . Previously , my niece celebrated her birthday , and she bought two dresses . which is the Snow White's dress and Belle's dress . These two little kids are obsessed with the Disney Princesses . So , while i was talking to Ima , she told me that she came across some wedding dresses online which are inspired by the Disney Princesses and yes , they were pretty as hell :')

Hopefully when i get married , i'd have a pretty dress and make my Disney Fairytale Dreams come true (:

Here are some pictures of the Disney Princesses inspired dresses :

Both inspired by Belle from The Beauty and The Beast .

I would actually love to have a wedding dress that looks something like this .

Isn't it pretty :')

This dress is inspired by Cinderella .

I find the design simple yet very elegant and nice .

This might be one of my choices too

This is a dress inspired by Jasmine from Alladin .

I find this dress really stunning but i figured that it is a tad bit too plain to be a wedding dress .

but i wouldn't mind wearing this dress for perhaps an after party at the wedding or something ;)

I've always loved the dress Kate Middleton wore on her Wedding Day .

The minute i saw her dress , my jaw literally dropped .

It is just so beautiful .

&& if all else fails , i'd probably just wear a wedding dress that looks something like this :)

SO , there you go , a sneak peek into my future *crossfingers hehe . i just love imagining my wedding . it is such a beautiful thing . the dress , the reception , the love . just everything about it is just so nice and everybody is so happy . and yeah . i love going to weddings actually . it's like the bride and groom are so happy . the montage shown is always very sweet . i just love the thought of it - a wedding , knowing that you're going to get married , like finally , you can say "He is the one"

awww :')

OKAY , let's not get carried away .

ANYWAY , if you wanna check out the other Disney Princesses inspired Wedding Dresses , do click HERE !

Rumors Has It .

2011-07-09T15:01:00.000+08:00

Seriously , some people like fucking piss me off . Like seriously ?

What is more important ? Your Fucking country or the need for you to fucking go out with you friends ?
Like , seriously . fucking chill . there is no need to fucking burst out in anger about your saturday plans . If you want to fucking go out , fucking do so . like nobody is stopping you from going out . by all means , go ahead with your saturday plans . really .
you sit at home , talking and complaining on twitter about your plans being ruined by the rally happening in KL . it is for our country . without a fucking country , you won't be fucking here la .
how could you be so inconsiderate and say such things .
like
"OMG , WHAT THE HELL ARE WE GOING TO THE WHOLE DAY?"
Well , i have a fucking idea . why don't we look for your brains ?
OH WAIT , no wonder we can't find it . you don't have one . that's right .

GEE , some people are just immature , stupid , fucked etc.
fucking care about something . there are so many other days to hang out with your friends . there is still tomorrow , next week , august and so on .
FUCKING CALM DOWN -.-

omg , i'm so angry . i seriously cannot stand people like this . seriously ?
i'm all like "WHY ARE YOU STILL ALIVE"
stupid bitch -.-

Cool Story Bro .

2011-07-09T12:19:00.000+08:00

THIS IS SO ME . OMG .

Sealed Lips

2011-07-08T21:12:00.000+08:00

Okay , So , Am asked me to make a wishlist . I mean , yeah . Well , things on my wishlist are things that'll make me shut up . Like , i would marry you if you get me one of these things . and like , i'll shut up if you get me any of these . i'll be the happiest girl on earth and yeah . So , here it goes , a few things that i'd like :D

So , first , a Chanel bag (:

a longchamp which looks like this one !

havaianas !

hermes birkin ;)

M.A.C real pen eye liner

Lumix LX5

this 3/4 pants . i saw one at Dorothy Perkins the other day

i've been looking all over for this . someone please tell me where i could get them ):

this hat ;p just for fun !

and this top for one of my lazy days :D

a varsity jacket pleasee !

i really need to go shopping , i really need to get rid of my old clothes and get new ones ): can't wait to get my online blogshop working , then i'll get money , if anybody buys my clothes :\ well , i hope they do . some are even brand new with the price tag still on . i've never even wore some of them :\ bleghh . oh wells . this is all i could think about for now . i'm feeling hungry . anybody wanna take me out for dinner ? haha .

anyway , today , i went out with my boyfriend before he leaves this Sunday for College . hmm yeah . we went for a movie at pyramid . Watched Mr. Popper's Penguings . Pretty funny . i enjoyed the movie (: there was a nice crowd to in the cinema . people were enjoying the movie and clapped their hands and everything . haha . the penguins were so cute !

besides that , the jam was horrible because of tomorrow . it took me 15 minutes to get out of the carpark and half an hour to get on the main road to my house . dude , seriously ? i was literally going crazy in the car with nik . we were fooling around and one of the man inside the other car looked at us like we were aliens or something . it was pretty funny . we were laughing and everything . damnn son .

well , moving on ! since nik is leaving like on Sunday , and i wouldn't be seeing him this weekend , i took my time to make him a good luck card (: it's nothing much , just something simple (: i don't usually make him stuff , i just felt like it this time !

so yeah , i think that's about it . going to go grab something to eat . haven't had a proper meal all day . gonna go see whats for dinner or maybe some McD . gosh , all these cravings and i've been wanting to lose weight . I AM A MASSIVE FAILURE .

Good Laughs .

2011-07-08T11:28:00.001+08:00

Hey hoo !

So , i was going through some videos on youtube , and i came across one of Jenna Marble's video and i tell you , she is fucking hilarious . i'm still watching her videos and it gets better everytime ! So , i'm going to post some of her videos up here if you want to check it out (:

1. this video is about Girls that pisses her off which is so true !

2. this is just another funny video of her about how to trick people into thinking you're good looking !

3. and this is about how to avoid talking to people you don't like . HAHAH . this is hilarious ! WATCH THIS !

Hope you guys enjoy ! cause i sure as hell did ;)
This is her Youtube channel !
She has a tumblr account :D
She has Twitter too !
and a Facebook page !

xx

That should be me .

2011-07-07T18:49:00.000+08:00

Harrith Aiman Goh

isn't he the cutest ? haha . anyway , went out to 15 to grab a meal with the boyfriend . headed home and played outside for a bit with the little boys ! haha . nik and i went through all my old blogposts . and yeahh , it was really funny . anyway , the boyfriend just went home . gonna go take a shower !

I have a dream .

2011-07-07T14:05:00.000+08:00

I've always wanted to be a princess ;)

yes , sue me !

i'm a dreamer .

Amalina Zainal . Lim Jia Yuan . Justin Choy

I love them to the moon and back .

they are like my unicorns ♥

Rolling in the deep

2011-07-06T21:55:00.004+08:00

So , been figuring out how to change my template the whole day . && i finally figured it out . pretty hilarious , i was a html god ! now . not so anymore :\ unfortunately . but hey , i didn't lose my touch , i could still manage a few things here and there :D i feel happy !

Anywayy,

Today , in English class , we had to do an impromptu definition essay based on the word 'lesson' in the movie the Dead Poets Society . I kinda screwed everything up . Figures -.-

I have a feeling that i'm going to score a really low GPA in English . i seriously think so . Mehh.

Moving on !

the rest of the day was pretty fun . it was okayy. Had Japanese Udon for lunch at Marufuku with the usuals and we watched that stupid maze game reaction video of the guy . HAHAHAHA . i couldn't stop laughing , i thought it was really funny ! HAHA .

THIS VIDEO :

OMG , watch it guys ! hahaha .

okay , maybe i feel pretty bad for that guy and i would've probably have an equally bad reaction to the maze game which i did only it wasn't caught on camera but yeah , that's besides the point . this is not to make an embarrassment out of this guy . but it's just for laughs !

Oh wells , i'm also kinda counting down the number of days till Nik goes to college . hmm . I mean , he is not going to be anywhere out of the country but i'll be missing him . haha . omg dee -.- i mean , he is just going to Shah Alam anyway . but he'll be coming back to Subang only during the weekends , that is if he is not busy . which is pretty sad . i've got no one to take me out at night :\ what a bummer . but he is going away for a good cause *crossfingers* he is leaving on sunday . this sunday . hopefully i get to see him tomorrow or something . i'm going to miss you baby ;)

ANYHOO , Tonight is slacking night ;p We've got nothing to do and it feels so good (:

my brother came over for dinner and Areesa is the cutest little thing you can ever encounter on this planet . God , i love her !

OH BY THE WAYY !
Watch this video too !
12 Things that Women Want !
It's a pretty interesting video i came by .
WATCH IT :D

Currently whatsapping Am and BBMing the boyfriend .

I'll probably find something interesting to do later .

Till then,

deehussin

THIS

2011-07-06T18:57:00.000+08:00

Calculus

2011-07-06T14:05:00.002+08:00

Greetings from Calculus Class ! :D

do excuse us . we're like really bored . i can't even ... and i'm so sleepy . my eyes are like ... and i have no idea what is going on . bleghh . will update soon when i get home .

Look Out Point

2011-07-05T23:21:00.002+08:00

I'm back, Bitches!

2011-07-05T19:01:00.004+08:00

Hey Errbodaay !

So , the last time i blogged was in 2010 and noww its 2011 .

Well , a whole year has passed by and a lot of things happened . i actually never thought i would ever look back and start blogging again but just yesterday , i had this urge of blogging. So, i thought to myself, "hey, why not"

Which explains why I'm here, now (;

So, long story short:

1. I've completed high school !

I remember complaining about how i wanted to end high school so much because it was too much of a bore and i just couldn't stand it anymore. Well, I have to say, i do miss it every now and then :\ i actually miss everything - friends, teachers, lessons, activities, etc.

2. I'm in college now !

Yes, i'm all grown up ;p i'm in college doing the American Degree Transfer Program at Taylor's Lakeside. Finally a whole new adventure. no doubt it is a hell lot of fun, but it is tiring as hell. like seriously!

3. I just turned 18 .

OH YES BABY ! the much anticipated age . Legally 18 , they say ;p but unfortunately i fell terribly ill on my birthday itself. but that is besides the point . The point is , i had fun :D my boyfriend took the usuals (puteri, rais and i) to Look Out Point in Ampang as i have never been there before and i have always wanted to . It has a really nice view. Will post pictures soon (: & he also threw me a surprise dinner ! eventhough i was ill, i still went and it was nice to see my friends there ! ♥

there will be more to come,

i will update soon.

Birthday Wishlist 2010

2010-06-28T18:00:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps ;p

So , my birthday is coming up ! it's this Friday . Woot woot ! and i'm turning 17 .

1. a top , like this one !

2. a new wallet , the long ones :D

3. a new bag (:

4. A POLAROID !

5. this dress ;p

6. A bedazzled BB cover . or and iphone cover :D

7. A nice comfy hoodie

8. A new pair of flats .

9. A nice new HUGE pencil box (:

10. MORE CLOTHES/BAGS/DRESSES ETC :D

hehe , i'm done here ;p

kisses

2010-03-07T18:58:00.002+08:00

SO HELLO !

it's been like a long long time since i last updated my blog .

Nothing new , really . i have no idea what to talk about .
i can't believe it's my last year of high school . i'm turning 17 soon .
i've been meaning to post a long post and summarise my first 2 months of 2010 .
but i just got lazy . AHAH .

okay let's do this !

JAN :

1. School was massive .
2. Preparations for Sports Day .
3. Nothing interesting , really .

FEB :

1. Sports Day was awesome !
2. It wasn't a good month with the boyfriend though . went through a lot of crap
3. EXAMS :D

MARCH :

1. Results (Y)
BM - 61 (yes , i did bad)
ENG - 88
MATH - 87
SEJ - 98
AG - 97
ADDMATH - 77
PHYSICS - 80
BIO - (not sure yet)
CHEM - 70
EST - 90
2. Looking forward for the holidays
*Leadership thing
* Extra Classes
*Tuitions
*Trip to Langkawi
3. Hoping for better months ahead of me :D

That's it for now (:

xx

So , it's real .

2010-01-19T21:10:00.002+08:00

Heyy .

i know , i've not been blogging for a very very long time .
i've been really busy , and my laptop was sent to be repaired and i just got it back .
so then i've decided to start blogging again .

It's now the year 2010 . i'm a senior in school . i'll be leaving high school in let's say plus minus 11 months or so . i'm actually growing older . i've always been longing for this moment . and believe it or no . it's finally here . WOAH . i'm turning 17 this year . my teens years are coming to an end . how sad is that ?

i'm coping with studies . it isn't as bad as you think it is . well , for now at least . i've got a packed schedule ahead of me . even now , i'm struggling to breathe . i've got tuition like every other day . hectic isn't it ? my going out day is only on a saturday , that is if i study . and yeah . but now , since sports day is just around the corner , which is on the 5th of feb . and i'm in cheer . so we have so limited time to prepare . Ergo , there are practices every other day except Sundays . OH WELL .

i hope to do well in my examinations though . i have one in Feb and one in April and another in May and Trials in August and September prolly . then , it's the real deal - SPM . WOAH .

i thought of blogging a long post . but i really have no idea what to say anymore . so yeah .

Friends ?
i love my friends :D

Boyfriend ?
I'm still with the same boy and yeah , i love him too .
7 months , 2 weeks 2 days .
DOOD , that is long kaay . no kidding .

okay , since i have nothing else to blog about .
i shall stop here .
i miss my friends and boyfriend and i love them to bits and pieces .

XX

2010

2010-01-01T16:42:00.002+08:00

i think , it's about time i start updating my blog , i swear it's so so so so dead .

So , a year has passed .

the best thing that has ever happened to me in 2009 :

I fell in love with Nik Asyraaf .

tad bit too cheesy ey ?
OH WELL !
HAHAHAHAHA !

SO ,
IN 2010

i'll be turning 17 ! OMG , right ?!
i'll be done wth high schoool .
&&
more new adventures awaits me (:

till then ,
XX

Somebody to love

2009-12-01T21:18:00.002+08:00

OH !

NEW FRAMES :D

DIOR ♥

btw

I changed my tumblr URL

withlovebydeehussin.tumblr.com

Oh noo .

2009-11-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

It's been too long now .
I just created Tumblr :D

beautifulliesandfakesmiles.tumblr.com

still needs a lot of getting used to .

MY WANTS :

1. A NEW LAPTOP
2. CLOTHES
3. THOSE DAMN HEELS
4. BESTFRIENDS

till then

Ever so sweet .

2009-11-17T13:59:00.002+08:00

Ever came to a point where you really don't know what you want .
You're stuck between two different choices ?
You really just don't know .

Well , i have been there a little too many times .
At some point , i know what i want , i just know it .
I know what to do , i know how to handle it , i want it all .
But then again , i'll reach a point -
Where i don't know what i want , i am unsure of myself , i hesitate .
and those decisions i make when i hesitate is pointless , useless , just not beneficial at all .

These things , i realize are unnecessary stress .
I mean , why keep on thinking about something less important than the things that you ARE suppose to care about ,
for example ; studies & friends .

Maybe ,
It's better when you just let it be .
Let it hang .
Say "I'll be fine"
Because , sometimes , when you tell everybody you're fine , you will be .
&& you'll tend to forget about your problems and actually enjoy your day .
Well , at least a slight bit .

It is not the end of the world if shit happens .
It's a new beginning .
You learn from your mistakes .
Take time , explore , after all , i'm still only 16 going on 17 .
I've got a whole life infront of me .
New friends , New people and more .

I know my flaws , i know my mistakes ,
I know i was stupid for letting such a situation get out of hand .
But i was naive and now i know .
I was unstable , i was a young girl who just go her freedom .
I was trying new things .
So did you .

Why are you still blaming me ,
Looking down towards me .
I admitted , i let go ,
Why don't you too ?

I just don't know what to say anymore .
I don't know what to do .

I don't know what's going to happen .
&& I still can decide .
I'll just wait and see .
I'll just keep on hoping .
but are you ?

Hello World

2009-11-16T19:28:00.002+08:00

WELL , HELLO !

i've not been updating my blog .
just been really busy .
i'll update when the holidays start , PROMISE .

XX

Nik Muhammad Asyraaf

2009-11-10T11:04:00.002+08:00

I have to admit ,

1. I miss you , a lot .
2. I still love you .
3. Your absence torture me .

I might look just perfectly fine on the outside but inside i'm dying .
I honestly , don't know why it happened and I'm still wondering .
It sucks being away from you .
When I was talking to you the other day , it hit me that we're just friends and it hurts so much .
I feel awkward . I admit , I can't accept the fact .
But I'll just have to deal with it ,
maybe it's for the better , right .

We can't give up .
We'll just have to wait and see how the story ends

XX

my bestfriends

2009-11-07T11:31:00.003+08:00

WHO needs 123456789 FRIENDS when you have people like THEM to cheer you up ?

ASHRAF & PUTERI

I LOVE YOU TO DEATH !

WOOYEAH !

2009-11-03T22:32:00.002+08:00

hearts and crosses

2009-11-01T22:21:00.002+08:00

OKAY ,
i have not been updating my blog .
Gosh , i have to admit . everything is easier with twitter .

but
i can't just leave my blog dead like this .
So , i decided to update a lil .

What have i been up to lately ?
DAMN , shit has been going on . ooh .
Some good shit and some bad shit . -.-"

GOODSHITS :
#1 I AM DONE WITH MY FINALS :D
#2 I HAD LOADS OF FUN WITH DEAR BESTFRIENDS
#3 I WENT TO AAR (prolly one of the best nights)

BADSHITS :
#1 WALKING ON ROCKY ROADS
#2 I CAN'T STOP GETTING MY ASS INTO TROUBLE
#3 RESULTS ARE COMING SOON . FUCK

I really miss hanging out with Puteri .
I have to say , meeting them killroy boys was awesome , i miss them like hell .
I just miss those carefree days .
I love you but i'm a little messed up .
I don't know .

That's all i could think of right now .
So jyeah .
BYE
XX

on the rocky road .

2009-10-19T23:18:00.002+08:00

OKAY ,
i'm there again , standing on the edge of the cliff .
i want to jump off , but a part of me wants to just sit there to enjoy the view and the breeze .

i'm speechless , i don't know what to say . i really don't .

painted faces

2009-10-10T23:07:00.006+08:00

Heyy ,

So , today was my last chance to go out before FINALS .

IF only finals started earlier , i would be on holidays starting this MONDAY .

BUT NOO , they had to postpone in to this Monday .

JEEBUS .

Well ,

Went out with Nik , Puteri and Rais . After tuition .

Watched 500 days of Summer .

I swear it was boring , no kidding . i wanted to sleep .

Should've watcher Sorrority Row .

hmmf .

Met Ashraf , Musyir & Faid there as well .

Came home , and studied .

I've not been updating my blog .

I'm running out of pictures .

I'm not ready for finals & i want to be done and over with it .

Okay , will update soon :D

Peace to the East :D

2009-10-07T18:39:00.005+08:00

Hey Ho !

SO , i didn't go to school today .

WAS DAMN MOTIVATED TO STUDY !

so , i studied , and studied . and then , mama asked "Wanna go hang out?"

OBVIOUSLY , the answer was YES . wanted to go get school stuff anyway .

Called Puteri up , her phone has MAJOR issues . -.-"

So , met up with her and Ashraf and McD , Parade .

Bought my school stuff & met up with some SJ & 17 people .

Apparently , it was Syazwan's Birthday . So , they had a little get together .

Joined them for a bit at Secret Recipe but had lunch earlier at Sakae Sushi . YUMM !

Chilled out later - Me , Puteri & Ashraf .

Nik watched "The Ugly Truth" with his friends today .

UNFAIR ! I wanted to watch the story . grrr .

He is such a WASABI . ahahahah !

**wink wink to ELEENA .

I've been wanting to watch like A LOT of movies

1. Harry Potter

2. UP!

3. The Ugly Truth

4. The Time Traveler's Wife

5. Sorrority Row

6. 500 Days of Summer

7. Dance Flick

8. FAME !

9. Love Happens

I wanna go OUT :D

finals are around the corner =\

got to go . TUITION .

A whole new world

2009-10-06T21:38:00.004+08:00

Heyy !
So , I was watching Aladdin on Dismey Channel just now . It's so sweet and cute , I swear !

**When he held out his hand for mine, my heart all a-flutter.

**One look at your smile and I could see the light shining everywhere.

Al : you don't want to go for a ride , do you ? We can get out of the palace , see the world .
Jasmine : is it safe ?
Al : sure ! Do you trust me ?
Jasmine : huh ?
Al : do you trust me ?
Jasmine : yes .

:D

xx

Sweet Dreams

2009-10-02T11:37:00.001+08:00

Hey ,

So , I'm in the ICT lab . with Eleena and Vivian .

Vivian is reading a book and Eleena is drawing something on Paint .

I'm listening to Deeper Conversation by Yuna , and i have nothing to do .
Twitter is taking FOREVER to download .
Facebook and Ebuddy is BLOCKED . shitballs .

I had yucky food this morning , Blegh .

I have tuition later . Meeting up with Ashraf . HAHA . damn we're gonna laugh over something like crazy .
TELL ME , how am i gonna concentrate on Addmath with him around . HAHAHA .

I can't wait for tomorrow .
I have an open house to go to .
and I've got Rachael's party but i can't go =\
I have tuition too .
SHIT , exams are around the corner , it's killing me .
BOOHOO MAN .

okaylah , i'm goonna go now ,

XX

Only you can make me .

2009-10-01T21:31:00.002+08:00

Okay ,
so , i've not been blogging . and i wanted to blog about my trip to Bali . And , i'm lazy . So , screw the post about Bali , all i can say is "BALI IS AWESOME !" Like Hazirah said "It's so easy to love Bali !" OH HELL YEAH IT'S TRUE ! Pictures are on Facebook !

So , anyway . let's blog about what i'm feeling now .

1. I sure as hell can't wait to finish my finals .
2. I can't drop my Physics . GREAT ! =.= Now , i'll just have to endure the pain while it lasts .
3. I hope i get my tickets for Beyonce , FAST !
4. I need to study . I feel SO stupid .
5. I want to get well .
6. I feel EMPTY .
7. As much as i hate to say it but I really don't trust you . =\
8. 4 months and i'm already rocking on the cliff .
9. Am i in any way , losing you ?
10. I hate all this .

I try to not care , i hide it all away . but why ? i ask myself .
I have no idea .
There is no answer to my question .
Could someone please show me the way ?
Words rush into my ears , killing me inside .
I put a smile on my face and remind myself , everything is going to be OKAY .

But reality pokes me like a needle .
leaving the sense of pain .
i sit there , thinking quietly ,
WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING ?!
But yet again , i push everything aside .
I hope and hope .

I need you to let me in ,
I don't know what you're thinking or what you want .
You wear a mask and put on your show .
It's not like i don't know that it's just a show .
I need to be able to trust you again .

This is not what i came for .
I want to know ,
I need to know .
Is this all worthy ?
Am i making a mistake .

Oh God , please answer my prayers .

xx

QUICK

2009-09-23T23:27:00.001+08:00

SECOND DAY

great D

walked and shopped :D
going to the beach tomorrow (:
HOTT SURFERS . NGEEEE .
gtg
will update soon .
XX

Bali oh !

2009-09-22T22:51:00.002+08:00

OH , i'm now going online at the internet room at the hotel :D
I have to say , i'm loving it here !
HAVING SO MUCH FUN SINCE THE MOMENT I LANDED .

The Hotel is BEYOND AWESOME .
and the view is great .
&& I'm talking - Buildings , Sunset , Surfer doods . YES . ALL THAT .

I watched the cultural dance just now . It was good . i really liked it .
THE SUNSET WAS OFF THE HOOK .
the monkeys hanging around were scary .
the stupid red butt animal wanted to snatch my phone away .
IDIOT .

OH , the sad thing is
MY PHONE IS DEAD .
shit , i know right .
i can't charge it .
WELL , i'll have to wait .

TILL THEN .

XX

oh , it's raya time !

2009-09-21T00:45:00.003+08:00

I'd like to wish EVERYONE a HAPPY HAPPY RAYA :D

apparently , i'm a little TOO old to be collecting Raya Angpaus this year .

which is sad . but i'm thankful with whatever i have collected because , it's still money and WAY better than nothing :D

Right ?

Well , it's getting late .

Heaven , I love !

2009-09-19T00:41:00.002+08:00

Ohh , I finally got to shop , I bought like uhmm , 10 items ;D

3 basic tees
1 graphic print tee
2 cardigans
1 high waisted shorts - I finally got them ! ;D I LOVE !
2 dresses
1 beach like top

&&
tomorrow , imma shop for shoes . *fingers crossed*

I love you , daddy !
Thank you oh so much ;D

I miss you & I still love you .
*you know who you are*

Ohh ! And I'm very happy for the dearest bestfriend , Eleena Rashidah Khalid !
You're finally taken and you took the risk .
I'm happy you got out of your small box , and be brave .
I'm proud of you babes !
No matter what happen , I'll be there for you !
GOOD LUCK !

XX

lights off .

2009-09-18T13:54:00.002+08:00

Wow , funny , how i'm handling things pretty well .

I love you and all but i need my space .
respect that , thank you .

Really can't wait for my BALI trip .
It's like THE PERFECT ESCAPE .

Will update more soon .

Till then ,

love , what does it even mean anyway ?

2009-09-18T01:37:00.002+08:00

Screw what i said earlier .

I'm done with you now .

It's time to REFRESH :D

I feel better .

I love my bestfriends

You'll just have to wait , loverboy .

Go jump off the building

2009-09-17T18:25:00.001+08:00

Seriously , I am sick and tired of YOU .

You people can go FUCK each other till the world ends for all I fucking care .

Fuck fuck fuck .

Just stay out of my fucking life .

Yes , I do drugs .

2009-09-17T13:10:00.002+08:00

Ohmygod .
I hate what I'm going through .
Why is everybody being such an ASS .
What is with you people nowadays .

To that motherfucking bitch ,
I seriously don't understand what the hell is your bloody problem .
What ? Do you think you're all that ? Well , earth to you , NOBODY IS FUCKING PERFECT , FUCKFACE .
I'm sorry , you had your chance but you wasted it . Your fault , idiot .
TOO BAD FOR YOU .
I'm happy , face the fact , you have just go to deal with it .
I mean , I tried being nice to you . Fck that ! I WAS NICE TO YOU , bitch .
Now , I so regret what I did cause you don't deserve to be treated nicely .
Hellur , I made the effort and I very well deserve at least a THANK YOU , MOEFOE .
I hate girls like you .
NOTE TO SELF ,
jealousy ain't healthy , girlfriend !
FUCK YOU !

&& to you ;
I think you have anger management problems . I don't want to jump to conclusions but I just think so .
You have so got to mind your words MR.
I find you really rude . Though your statement refers to someone else but keep your thoughts to yourself , will you ?
And like I said ,
I give in , we'll do things your way if you're gonna make a BIG fuss about it .
I'm tired of dealing with things like this cause I have got better things to do .
Don't take it the wrong way .

I'm done here ,

xx .

Standing in the rain .

2009-09-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

Okay , so , honestly , i wanted to post , like a super long post . i had a lot in mind today . about what to write and all and yeah . THEN , as usual . *POOF* information all gone .

SO , now , i'm like super BLANK . i seriously have nothing to say .

LET'S SEE :

I'm going to Bali on the 22nd :D I CAN'T WAIT . just DAYS AWAY .

Though i'll be missing my friends here while they get their one week holiday to hang out . and i'll be all the way over there . but it's okay , i'll be there with family :D

I am in need of a shopping spree . I haven't shopped till i drop like crazy .

I need SHOES , CLOTHES , yes , i do !

I CAN'T WAIT FOR RAYA ! WOOHOO , it's like so near :D

HAHAHAHAHAHA , wait , i was on MSN . this was what happened :

Muhd. Afiq says (11:02 PM):
weyh dee
aiman ajak i date u gi prom kdu
hahaha

OKAY , on the phone with TheBoyfriend .
XX

100 days (:

2009-09-11T20:58:00.005+08:00

We have been going on for 100 days .

WOAH , never knew i'd survive .

I love you , I really do .

SHOUT OUTS :

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY

BRYAN WOO

WAN BAZLY SHAH

AQILAH ALI

broken hearts and perfect crosses .

2009-09-10T22:31:00.003+08:00

I hear voices around me saying things i don't want to hear .
It sucks to have that feeling -
lost , confusion , insecurity ,
but , what can i do ?
I'll just have to endure it .

Someone ,
Just anyone ,
Let me out ,
& Save me .

tweet tweet .

2009-09-09T00:03:00.001+08:00

i have twitter now :D

DEE HUSSIN

follow me .

*tweet tweet tweet*

She's got a boyfriend now .

2009-09-08T20:37:00.003+08:00

You know,

that moment whenyou kiss someone

and everything around you becomes hazy.

And the only thing in focus is you and that person.

And you realize that that person is the

only person that you're supposed

to kiss for the rest of your life.

And for one moment you get this gift.

And you want to laugh and you want to cry

because you feel so lucky that

you found it and so scared that

it will ~~go away~~ all at the same time.

------------------------------------------------------------------

A wish upon a star .

2009-09-06T00:01:00.002+08:00

Nik Muhammad Asyraaf ,

Someone told me that :
"One day , a someone special would walk into your life and make you see why it didn't work with anyone else ."

&& when you walked into mine , i was very sure that person was you :D

10 random facts :

1. Saying your name makes me nervous .
2. Funny , the way you say "I love you" makes me melt inside .
3. I never knew I'd love someone as much as I love you .
4. && I never knew i'd miss every minute being by your side .
5. With you , i never have to worry about my imperfections cause you take me for who i am .
6. I love the way you make me believe and trust you with all my heart .
7. I like it how easily you make me smile and laugh .
8. You're the fruit loop in my world of cherrios .
9. I giggle when you call me baby .
10. Honestly , I never knew i'd fall in love with you . but now , i'm crazy for you .

Your smiles & laughter ,

Brighten my day ,

You're my night in shining armor ,

That is here to stay .

Tagged by Filmon Ng [TRUTH]

2009-09-05T13:48:00.003+08:00

THE RULES OF 15:

*ANSWER HONESTLY. * Go through your wall and list the first 15 names you see. Do not list any repeats; simply go to the next name in the list. Then, answer the 41 questions below, pertaining to the 15 people. When you finish, tag all 15 people in the list, so the cycle can continue. If you've been tagged, copy and paste this information into a new note, and follow the directions above.

1. Yong Jia Lin
2. Daniel Othman
3. Filmon Ng
4. Khaled Ali
5. Eleena Rashidah Khalid
6. Yen In
7. Danial Ariff
8. Ashraf Aman
9. Zian Zurin
10. Nick Raja Adam
11. Rachel Ng
12. Sharifah Sarah Amirah
13. Zulhafidz Zahir
14. Shah Iman
15. Ainaa Delailaa

1. How did you meet 1? (Jelly)
School :D

2. What would you do if you meet 3? (Filmon)
HA ! MONICA ! *hugs*

3. Would you date 8? (Ashraf)
ARE YOU CRAZY ! Amalina will kill me !

4. Have you ever seen 11 cry?? (Rachel)
Yepp :D

5. Would 3 and 13 make a good couple? (Filmon & Hafidz)
HAHAHAHAHAHA ! both think they're hottstuffs . DISASTER .

6. Describe 9. (Zurin)
ZURIN , pretty , funny , fun , awesome , cool . :D

7. Do you like 2? (Daniel)
It's a LOVE-HATE relationship !

8. Do you think 6 is attractive? (Yen In)
She is very petite !

9. When was the last time you talked to 14? (Shah Iman)
It's been too long :0

10. Would you ever date 10? (Nick)
There will be tons of laughter .

11. Where does 15 live? (Ainaa)
USJ ? :D

12. What is the best thing about 5? (Leen)
She's too AWESOME :D

13. What would you like to tell 13 right now? (Hafidz)
I MISS YOU ! :D HAHAHAHA !

14. What is the best thing about 12? (Myra)
She's pretty and nice :D

15. Have you ever kissed 4? (KHALED)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! kidding me ?

16. What's the best memory you have with 14? (Shah Iman)
hahaha , don't know ?

17. Who is 10's best friend? (Nick)
ANNE and SITI :D

18. Is 3 pretty? (Filmon)
TOO PRETTY . PFFT .

19. What was your first impression of 8? (Ashraf)
Ashraf ? he seems like a good boy :D

20. Is 1 your best friend? (Jelly)
YEPP :D

21. Have you seen 5 in the last month? (Leen)
I just saw her yesterday :D

22. When was the last time you saw 11? (Rachel)
World Stage . I MISS HER .

23. Have you been to 13's house? (Hafidz)
Nawww.

24. When's the next time you'll see 9? (Zurin)
Monday ?

25. Are you really close to 6? (Yen In)
not so , but okay :D

26. Would you give 3 a hug? (Filmon)
Yeah :D

28. Do you know a secret about 15? (Ainaa)
Naww.

29. Describe the relationship between 14 and 4 ? (Shah Iman & Khaled)
HAHAHA , i don't see them as friends :0 they won't click !

30. What's your friendship like with 7? (Danial)
BROTHA :D

31. Have you ever danced with 12? (myra)
nope . haha .

32. How do you know 8? (Ashraf)
My bestfriend . duhh , her boyffriend .

33. Does 2 have a bf/gf? (Daniel)
Nopee .

34. Have you ever wanted to smack 4 in the face? (Khaled)
YEAH

35. Has 1 met your mother? (Jelly)
I guess so , yeah !

36. Have you traveled anywhere with 10? (Nick)
Nopee .

37. If you gave 7 $100, what would he spend it on? (Danial)
save it :D

38. What's your best memory of 2? (Daniel)
The fun bonding moments last year :D

39. What is your best memory with 6? (Yen In)
haha , 3 Galileo moments :D

40. What is the last thing you did with number 15? (Ainaa)
I met her at pyramid :D

41. What is 9 to you? (Zurin)
A good friend (:

42. Would you date 14? (Shah Iman)
HAHA !

43. What is 6's hobby? (Yen In)
Skipping class ! HAHAHAHA ! ;p

44. Which one of them would respond to this tag?
DON'T KNOW !

Imperfections

2009-09-05T12:08:00.002+08:00

Hey , so , I've not been blogging for quite some time . I've been busy , I guess or just too darn lazy to blog . Hahaha . Hmm , well , I'm currently having my exams . Class test 4 (: yeaah . I just sat for my BM , ADDMATH and MATH paper . And it's gonna be a long weekend cause there's a holiday on Monday ! Yes , more time to study . I did REALLY BAD for my class test 3 , and to be able to obtain average results for my Finals , I HAVE to ace my class test 4 =\ damn .

Now , I'm blogging using my phone cause I'm too lazy to switch my laptop on . Fasting month has been good so far (: the bazaar near my house sells pretty good food . The crowd isn't as awesome as last year but it's okay . I've not been out that much which pretty much sucks . I've been missing out on A LOT of good movies . I mean , can you bloody believe that I haven't watched :

1. Harry Potter
2. Transformers
3. UP
4. I love you , Beth Cooper
5. Orphan

The last movie I watched was :

Ghost of girlfriends past .

Thank god I'm going to The Curve this Sunday with a bunch of school friends and dates . Let's hope TheBoyfriend could make it (: I've not been out with him for so long . Hahaha . Though I met him yesterday and on Thursday . Mmmhmm . When I go , I wanna watch UP ! Weeeeee ! I can't wait (:

Oh ! I need to shop too . I'm so broke =\ this is pure CRAP . Mama's Birthday is around the corner , I have no idea what to get her . Not to forget the budget limit . GEEZ =\ but we'll be out for dinner on her birthday night (: alrightt .

I'm going to Bali - end of September . I haven't bought my monokini to wear . I can't wait to go though . But it'll be pretty sucky cause I won't be here the whole one week holiday . So , I won't be able to go out with TheBoyfriend . =| but it's okay , he'll be having exams anyway . So jyeah . I'll be having exams too . My finals - 5-16 September :D

I miss my bestfriends !
I miss my boyfriend & I'm sorry & I LOVE YOU (:

that's it for now .

Xx

STALKER .

2009-08-28T21:08:00.003+08:00

1.) Stalkerlist can be found here: http://apps.facebook.com/stalkercheck/

2.) Write the names of everyone on your stalkerlist below.

3.) DO NOT READ THE QUESTIONS BEFORE YOU PUT IN YOUR ANSWERS. JUST DON'T DO IT.

4.) Tag everyone you mentioned.

1. DANIEL OTHMAN

2. EWERN HENG

3. RACHEL NG

4. SYED AMIR

5. AINAA DELAILA

6. NADZIRAH RAHMAN

7. MAZLIFAH HURIN ABDUL SHUKOR

8. AMALINA ZAINAL

9. TASNIM HISHAM

10. DANIAL ARIFF

11. NINA YAP

12. SHARIFAH SARAH AMIRAH

13. FILMON NG

14. REDZA AZHAR

15. unknown

16. JANE LI WANG YU HUI

17. HAIRIL AIMAN

18. ALIF SYAFIZAN

19. NAQIUDEAN ZAINUDEAN

20. ELEENA RASHIDAH KHALID

21. KIMBERLY WAN

22. JAMES SEVENFOLD

23. ARIFF JOHAN

24. YONG JIA LIN

25. AQILAH ALI

26. LAWRENCE TAN

27. PAYAL KAUR

28. HAZIM HALIMI

29. ZULHAFIDZ ZAHIR

30. ALEX ONG

31. NICK RAJA ADAM

32. NATASHA KIMIE

33. SYAHIRAH KHAIRUDDIN

34. ALYAA AYESHA IMAN

→ Are you honestly surprised about any of these?

Not really . hahaha !

→How did u meet 4?

(syed amir) - He is my neighbour -.-"

→How much does 9 mean to you?

(tasnim hisham) - A LOT , i love that girl ! :D

→What is your most fond memory with 19?

(alif syafizan) - when we talk about stupid stuff ? hahaha .

→Do you know all of 2's secrets?

(ewern heng) - Nope , i don't .

→If you could marry either 1 or 21, who would it be?

(Daniel & Kimberly ) - DANIEL :D

→How far do you think you are on 5's stalkerlist?

(ainaaa D.) - don't knoww , prettyy far ?

→When is the next time you're going to see 7?

(hurin) - When i see her , or when she visits my school :D

→When is the last time you saw 17?

(haril aiman) - Neveer ?

→How do you think 13 feels about you?

(filmon) - AWW , he loves me :D

→Are 11 and 12 anything like each other?

(nina and myraa) - I don't think soo !

→Describe the relationship between 14 and 20.

(redza and leen) - they don't know each other !

→Would you ever want to date 18?

(alif syafizan) - HAHAHA ! seriously ?!

→What do you think 9's parents are/were like?

(tasnim hisam)- nice , perhaps :D

→Is 10 single?

(danial ariff) - SINGLE . he is up for grabs , Ladies ;p

→If you had never met 6, how would your life be different?

(naddy) - maybee . haha . ;p

→If you could tell 8 one thing right now, what would it be?

(ammie) - I LOVE YOU !

→What is the funniest thing you've ever heard 16 do?

(yu hui) - Don't knowww . hahaha !

→How did you meet 15?

UNKNOWN

→How did you come to be friends with 15?

UNKNOWN

→If 3 died, would you be lost?

(rachle) - HELL YEAH !

→What is the weirdest thing you've ever seen 4 do?

(syed amir) - LOADS OF STUFF . HAHAHAHAHA ! he is naturally weird . KIDDING .

→What is 5's only weakness?

(ainaa D.)- Dont know...

→Are you friends with any of 19's friends?

(naqi)- Yeahh :D

→Do you think 16 and 8 would make a good couple?

(yu hui and ammie) - don't think soo ! hahah .

→Who is 7 to you?

(hurin)- A friend :D a bubbly friend :D

→What is the one thing 20 most exceeds at?

(leeen) - She wild ;p

→If 1 and 3 hated each other, what would change?

(daniel and rachel)- Nopee . don't think soo .

→If 2 said to you that she loved 5, what would your response be?

(ewern and ainaa) - HAHA , alright :D

→Is 11 anything like 19?

(nina and naqi)- NO . hahaha !

→How much trust do you have in 12?

(myra) - ahaha . i trust her . she's nice :D

→If you fell off a bridge, would you trust 13 or 17 to catch you more and why?

(filmon and hairil) - FILMON LA :D

Rain , Sunshine , Drama & Bestfriends .

2009-08-28T18:16:00.002+08:00

Soo , i slept over Puteri's house .
Alyaa , Amie , Dee , Puteri .

In the morning , we had tuition . from like 10.30 to like 12 something , can't remember . then we waited for the arrival of Alyaa Ayesha Iman , who is fashionably late . JYEAH . She was like , i'll be there by 2 , and she arrived at 3 ! WOAH . Then , we sat around , talking , Facebooking , Laughing and yeahh .

At about 5 , we went to the bazaar , it started to drizzle but we wanted to go get our food , so , we went and got soaked in the rain . GRH . Met Afiq there though . Isn't he an eye-candy ;p HEHEHE .

Then , got straight home , and showered . :D then , talked more , and decided to hang out that night . So , we decided to go to 15 . and yeah . while waiting , we got super hungryy . AND FINALLY , the time came , So , we buka-ed and chilled for a bit then we went to 15 like about 9 , Met OUR dearest friend , MONICA (Filmon) hahaha , we wanted to go Shisha but decided not to after a bit . heh , then packed food for sahur and reached home at like 12 . then , chilled and took pictures .

We watched table for three , Amie fall asleep half way , then , we all decided to sleep . But we couldn't cause we all started talking . and talking and talking till it was like 4.50 am ? Then , i kinda fell asleep for a bit till Amie decided to bug me . GRRH . But it was time for sahur anyway , So , yeah , Then , we had ice cream . Butterscotch Ice Cream form Swensen's . DAMN , it was soo DEEEELICIOUS ! mmmmmmm . Then , went to bed .

OMG , did i tell you , i felt like a SUPER CLINGY girlfriend that night . hahahhaa , i don't know what got into me , hehehe . I'm sorry Boyfriend , I was disturbing his Beauty sleep , apparently ;p I LOVE YOU ! :D

OKAY , i'm done , pictures are posted on facebook , and if i rajin , i'll post some here . Now . it's 6.45 . got to go get ready . i'm going out for buka .

will update soon .

I LOVE YOU , PUTERI IMAN !

2009-08-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

PUTERI IMAN , my awesome-est BESTFRIEND .

I LOVE YOU :D

She's 16 now ! she's LEGAL , BOO YEAH !

10 facts about puteri :

1. She's wild .

2. She's crazy .

3. She's fun !

4. She's AWESOME .

5. She's always there when you need a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on or to cheer you up .

6. She's the Dancer , the Singer , the Talented one .

7. She's the one who will always be by your side , be it TROUBLE or JOY .

8. She's the NATURE lover .

9. She's the POSITIVE thinker .

10 . She's my BESTFRIEND & the SISTER .

I've known you for almost 10 years & counting . May this friendship NEVER end .

I miss the good old times when we were naive and playful . i remember the times we spent imagining about funny stuff . I remember the times we had our disagreements , our small fights . i remember the secrets we shared , the late night talk about boys . When i look back , you're there in every joyful memory that i cherish :D

I love you to DEATH bitch !

Tagged by RACHEL NG :D

2009-08-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

If your a guy,post as "my kind of girl"
If your a girl,post as "my kind of guy"

1.Do you need him/her to be good looking?
HE doesn't have to be ALL that . as long as i could look at him . then , he is good to go :D

2.Smart?
hehe , smart enough . i don't want him being a blonde .

3.Preferred age?
age is just a number ;p

4.Preferred height?
TALL :D

5.How about sense of humour?
A PLUSS PLUSS !

6.How about piercings?
if that makes him look hott . ;p

7.Accepts you for who you are?
A MUST .

8.Pink hair?
UGH , no way !

9.Mushy or not?
don't knoww . haha !

10.Thin or fat?
just nicee . ;p

11.Black,brown or white(skin colour)?
not so dark , :D tan is just fine . fair would be awesome too :D

12.Long hair or short hair?
short :D clean cut .

13.Plastic or metal?
what ?

14.Smells good?
YES ,

15.Smoker?
preferably not . but it's up to them , i have no say :D

16.Drinker?
as long as he knows his limits . :D

17.Girl/Boy next door?
why not ?

18.Muscular?
could work ;p

19.Plays piano?
COOL :D

20.Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
I'm MELTING !

21.Plays violin?
not a big turn on .

22.Sings very good?
LOVE LOVE LOVE ...

23.Vain?
not really a pluss .

24.With glasses?
if thats hott .

25.With braces?
will work ;p

26.Shy type?
not soo .

27.Rebel or good boy/girl?
both :D

28.Active or passive?
active !

29.Tight or bomb?
TIGHT . mmmhmm .

30.Singer or dancer?
BOTH :D

31.Stunner
AWESOME .

32.Hiphop?
can work ;p

33.Earrings?
HAHAHA !

34.Mr./Mrs. Count My Ex Gf's/Bf's Until You Drop?
NO , thank you :D

35.Dimples?
HEHE ;p i loike .

36.Bookworm?
naww .

37.Mr./Ms. Love Letter?
AWWWH :D

38.Playful?
at times :D

39.Flirt?
BIG FLIRT ? turn OFF !

40.Poem Writer?
AWW :D

41.Serious?
not soo .

42.Campus crush?
will do :D

43.Painter?
can can can :D

44.Religious?
as long as he know his roots :D

45.Someone who likes to tease people?
THE BOYFRIEND constantly does that .

46.Computer games freak?
NO

47.Speaks 20 languages?
can work .

48.Loyal or faithful?
MUST

49.Good kisser?
double PLUS !

50.Loves children?
MMHMM :D

xx

Always by my side :D

2009-08-23T20:19:00.003+08:00

Meant to be together ,

Meant for no one but each other ,

You love me , I love you harder .

Today , i had tuition in the morning (: then head off to pyramid . was alone for a bit , then met Amie :D then we walked around searching for dresses . I bought one at Tribeca , The Curve the other day . My very first maxi dress . heheh . And today , i bought another one from Forever 21 . Ohhh , i loike it . And Amie got really frustrated cause she couldn't find a dress . everything seemed too short for her . She hated her height . HAHHA , pity her . but i talked her into getting this really nice black dress . OHMYGOD , it looks really pretty on her . NO SHIT . ;p i loved it ! hehehe .

Then , walked around searching for what to buy for Puteri , her birthday is this Tuesday . HEHE . can't wait . Am , Ashraf and I are gonna share the present . i hope she likes it . I LIKE IT . hehehe . i seem to like everything . PFFT . Then , i saw the dress i've always wanted at Topshop , but i didn't have the cash on me , So , i'll just have to wait for another day -.-" OH WELL .

THEN , finally , the boys came . it took them like what ? 2 friggin hours to reach . PFFT . then , we went around some more . MET my long lost brother - Boone . it's been too long . HEH . Walked around some more . and did stuff . HAHA ! I love TheBoyfriend a lot . hehehe , and i had to go homeee . WEEEEE .

Finally , i get to wake up late tomorrowh ! WEEEE , tuition starts at 12 . THANK GOD FOR THAT ! i fell like watching a late night movie . OR The OC marathon or Gossip Girl - AGAIN . or OTH . but i don't have them seasons with me . I wonder where about are they . GRH . I'm starting to get addicted to facebook . HEHEHE .

HMMM , i guess that's it for now . i miss the boyfriend . and i can't wait to meet him on tuesday again :D heheehe . Loving the holidays babyy ! :D

clumsy , cause i've fallen in ♥ !

2009-08-23T00:07:00.002+08:00

TODAY :

// i woke up LATE . -.-"

// had tuition :D

// FACEBOOK ! ☺

// listened mussicc ♪ ♫ ♪

// went to the bazaar & met the normal crowd . FIGURES . hahaha .

// HAFIZ RAIS CAME OVER !

*It's been TOO long since i last met him . he was around to break his fast with his friends and decided to drop over my house for a visit . I miss him . hahaha . He's not staying around here anymore . all the way in damansara . had a chat with him for a bit before he went to see his friends . it was great meeting him again :D that awesome brother of mine . ;p

"I've been spending all my time just thinking of you"

I ♥ YOU

Oh my sweet darling Honey Bee .

2009-08-21T16:03:00.003+08:00

OH HOLY MOTHER OF THE GREAT BLACK AND WHITE COW !

I AM SO BLOODY BORED , I COULD DIE .

I WANNA GO OUT =\

UGH . THIS IS SO ANNOYING .

CAN I HAVE FRIENDS OVER , PLEASE ?

5 RANDOM things :

1. EXAMS are so near , i am so darn LAZY to bloody STUDY .

2. MAIDS piss the shit out of me . they are soo UNBELIEVABLE .

3. Staying at home is SOOO BORING .

4. I wish i could DRIVE !

5. I want to meet Amie & Puteri .

no more tears for you .

2009-08-21T00:15:00.005+08:00

I AM CURRENTLY :

1. SICK and sick .

2. having a bad tummy ache .

3. missing & is in LOVE with someone . HEHE .

4. DEAD BORED OUT OF MY SKULL .

OH , AND AND OHMYGOD .

END of the YEAR event looks AWHSOMEE !

DEFINATION PARTY !

venue : Sheraton , Subang .

date : 7th December

time : 8pm till MIDNIGHT

tickets : RM 35 (first week)

RM 40 (normal)

RM 50 (door)

I CAN'T WAIT !

&& HELLO NICK ! it's been a long time since we had our bonding moments . hehehe . and yes . finally we got to go on the webcam for a bit :D hehehe . i miss you , buddy (:

Spin around , Tumble down !

2009-08-18T23:48:00.004+08:00

WHAT I'M CURRENTLY FEELING :

1. I feel weird , pissed off , dissapointed & paranoid .

2. I am pretty down . thanks to YOUR doings .

3. I hate it when this happens .

4. I'm sick . fck the flu !

5. Period cramps are BEYOND control !

6. Excited for next week ! :D

Let's Parrtaay !

2009-08-16T19:14:00.002+08:00

WORLD STAGE WAS BEYOND AWESOME !

I can't find a word to describe the event . it was WOAH .

WOOOHHOOOO .

love love love love .

I WANT A REWIND BUTTON !

MERDEKA . CARNIVAL

It wasn't bad . it was fun actually . :D

we went into this adventure/haunted house . and it was awesome i tell you .

with slime and water and zombies .

AWESOME :D

hehehhe .

loved it . ;p

I'll be there when your heart stops beating .

2009-08-14T00:05:00.003+08:00

I GOTTA FEELING ...

That tonights gonna be a GOOD night ! ;p

YES . I am going world stage . :D Dan is selling his tickets to me . i love this boy laa ;p

&& ANYWAY ,

I have my merdeka carnival tomorrow . in school . mmhhmm .

I have to so take out a lot of money . i have presents to buy , and other needs . shits .

i'm done for now .

BYE :D

There she goes again .

2009-08-12T22:13:00.004+08:00

I am so god damn lazy already . i don't want to even make the effort to search for tickets anymore . i give up . HEH . but then i've got like 3 other invites on the same day . and i can't decide . heh . shits . =\ can i have a wish to split myself into 3 so i won't miss all the fun ? :D hehehehe . that's impossible though . which sucks . OHMYGOD . i was really looking forward to it . but oh well . maybe not my luck , ey ? it's okay . it's okay . let's hope for a next time . IF THERE IS a next time . sheeesh . -.-"

AND it sucks even more when :

MAMA SAYS :

Dee , you're so fat now . go work out and lose some weight . don't be malas .

I feel like killing myself now . i've been so stressed for god know what reasons . causing me to eat like a pig . causing the weight to increase . FATS EVERYWHERE . fck . fck . fck . i wanna play tennis , you don't let . i barely go skating anymore . i'm so lazy to do so . UGH . i hate this . can i donate them fats and could someone please donate some height . BE GENEROUS , DAMN IT !

i'm done here .

BYE

Where Rainbows End .

2009-08-11T22:35:00.003+08:00

Hey , So , i went to school just now . and we went for a field trip . We went to putrajaya . To look at plants . -.-" tree after tree . leaf after leaf . Don't ask what i learned cause i wasn't paying attention . HAHA ! yaaaa . the food was goood :D yes , no doubt . and the place was nice but there were like insects and like the SUN was attacking all of us . PFFT . but thank god , i'm not burnt . hehehe . Then , we went to MCD . to eat . yeaahh . (: and i slept on the bus ride back :D

OH YA !

Jia Lin and Ming Yao are so cute . Ming Yao bought her a flower and actually kneeled down to give it to her , SWEET KAN ?! i knoww . i was like AWWWW . they make a good couple . ;p SO SUPER SWEET :D

AND ,

I watched SEPET just now ;p

Boy : How long does it take for you to fall in love ?

Girl : A minute . How long does it take for you to fall in love with me ?

Boy : Much less than that .

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"I don't understand you women even if i lived till a hundred"

BYE :D

&& she says "I Love You"

2009-08-09T15:32:00.003+08:00

I am dead bored . like SEEHRIOUSSLAAY .

I have nothing to do !

Sunday ....
Is a FAMILY DAY ! :D

- lunch at KGNS with everybody (:
- going out dinner soon :D

ANYWAY .

I had tuition earlier today (: then just now , I went to the digital mall , hmms . Bought a new USB cable for my iPhone cause mine is preeetayh wreck -.-" so , now , my laptop is being a BITCH , so , I can't go online but thanks to my phone , now I can ! I miss shopping ! I really do ! And OHMYGOD ! You know what sucks , when there is an event , somewhere far where it takes a lot of persuasion before you could go , tickets are easy to get but when there is an event , somewhere near and transportation is easy , and parents are willin to let you go , tickets are SO BLOODY HARD to get ! Shitfck all the way -.-" in case you're clueless , I'm talking bout WORLD STAGE . GRRR . I'm done for now , gotta go get ready for dinner ! Will update soon !

BYE !

Take me far far away :D

2009-08-07T16:35:00.002+08:00

I AM DEAD BORED =\

MY WANTS :

1. TICKETS TO WORLD STAGE !
2. I want a VACATION ! on the beach please .
3. I don't want tuition -.-"
4. I want to get out of the house and chill out .
5. I want to go to the SPA . yes , i do !

What my mama doesn't know .

2009-08-06T22:54:00.003+08:00

Okay , so , i have not been updating my blog . YES , indeed , i am very berry LAZY . NO JOKE .

List of things i've been up to lately :

1. I went for Counselling . AND , i enjoyed it . it made me somehow , in a way - HAPPY . It's like , its a feeling hard to get . a sense of relief , perhaps . ;p

2. I WANT WANT WANT WANT to go for World Stage . Like seriously . but i'm not sure . it's like , i want to go , but i don't want to go . but then again i don't want to miss out on probably one of the BEST event of the year , you know . but then again , the laziness is there . =.= PLUS , i don't have any tickets . BLEH , if i have them tickets , i might just go .

3. MMMMMM , what else . i need to hang out with my bestfriends . i want a SLEEPOVER . i demand one now . HAHAHA . i really miss you guys . GRR

4. OH OH , mama has a blackberry now . I WANT ONE , BITCH ! ;p

5. I have been having LOADS OF FUN MISSING SCHOOL :D hehehehe , i know , i know .

6. OKAY , i had a dream . a really odd one . IT involved AMALINA . HAHAHAHA ! okay , SO , here it goes , So , am has her license to drive . somehow . though she's younger than me . what the hell , but okay . Then , i told my mum . and she was like okay . so , after all the HOOHAA you go through to get the license . i told my dad i wanted a car . AND , he bought me one . ;p GUESS WHAT CAR ?! BMW X6 ! WOOHOO , i know , right ! hahaha . AND guess what PAYAL had to say :

dee : *told her dream*
payal : YOU know how tiny YOU would look in the car .

*EVERYONE LAUGHS*'

WHY CAN'T ANYONE TAKE ME SERIOUSLY . I CAN DRIVE , I AM NOT THAT SHORT .

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA !

okay , i'm done now . i'm really bored though .
nyeh .

BYE BYE .

tick tock tick tock

2009-07-30T15:17:00.004+08:00

1. I miss the hair .

2. I miss the times .

3. I miss the fun .

It all just seems different now .

So , i still feel shitty . Trying my best to ignore it . thank god i'm meeting my bestfriends today . Well , let's hope so . Let's hope the rash goes away as well . It was gone this morning . but unfortunately , it's coming back . DARN IT . how unlucky . mama and daddy went to pyramid . I wanted to go . but felt lazy all of a sudden . Waiting to go for tuition . GOING only if the rash subsides in time . it's going away though . THANK GOD .

I WANNA HANG OUT WITH MY BESTFRIENDS

I miss our SLEEPOVERS !

HAHAHAHAHAHHA ! look at this !

It sucks when it hurts .

2009-07-29T17:02:00.002+08:00

Today , is a really bad day .

i really miss my bestfriends . where are you ? i need you guys so badly .
i want the rash as well as the hurt and pain to go away .
i hate being so afraid to tell you what i really feel .
i hate being afraid to show you who i reallly am .
i hate the way i feel right now . i really do .
i hate to cry alone in my room .
i just wish you could hear me .
but then , i'm afraid you'll eventually hurt me more .

can all the this just go away ?
was it a mistake that i had made ?
can i just please run away ?

P.S - Amalina & Puteri , i need to talk to you . =\

Our love is the Perfect crime .

2009-07-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

Hey , i've not been blogging , i am damn malas , i swear , i want to do a video blog again . but i'm damn malas . here i go again . my lazy days are coming back =\ exams were shit . grr . and i really want to go for the MTV world stage . ANYONE HAS TICKETS ? :D

ANYWAY , let's do this since i'm bored .
10 Random facts [10.59 PM]

1. CAPRICE IS HOTT .
2. In love with the song - I wanna touch you by the All-American Rejects .
3. I am Bored to death .
4. I am lazy to blog .
5. My cousins are coming over :D
6. I miss my bestfriends =\
7. I miss the boyfriend too :0
8. I don't want to go to school tomorrow .
9. I want to go shopping !
10. I wanna watch a sad movie and cry . HAHA !

okay , donee . :D

FOR AMALINA THE BITCH (:

2009-07-22T22:29:00.004+08:00

This is an imitation of Am's video . HAHAHA . jadi tak macam VLOG dia ? EHEHEHH

Take that AMS . ahahahh ! ;p

I'm taking back my love .

2009-07-22T18:11:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA !

Why am i so paranoid ?

2009-07-22T08:22:00.002+08:00

I'm in ICT class , dead bored . so i decided to blog . heh . i have nothing to say . and yes . my VLOG , is FUNNY ! and and ASHRAF ! i don't sound like a MAK ORANG . -.-" HAHAHAHA ! i've got Eglish test and History test later . wish me luck !

ELEENA IS A BITCH . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! :D

You know you love me , E ! (: